▒▒▒ Happily Single ▒▒▒

Days when u sure that Mr. Right is never going to appear and that somehow it's entirely ur fault!
Being happily single isn't about pretending u don't have these feelings

It's about learning how to be happy on ur own. .
Something that everyone needs to learn, regardless of whether they r live with someone or not!

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i'm so tired..

lately, i've missed my playtime
i missed my college time
to much work
to much problems to solved
but thank God i've good friends
hihi.. sorry i haven't updating blog for so long

My "L"

Can I find my “L” ?

My “Last” ?

My “Love” ?

My “Last Love” ?

From the Bottom of My Broken Heart

I don't understand . .
After u left my heart , why u come back to me ?
It's so difficult to fix this broken heart . .
So difficult !
Do u know I cry everyday ?
Everytime I remember u n all that romantic moments , I cry myself . .

Do u ever think about me ?
Do u ever cry yourself to sleep ?
In d middle of d night when u awake , r u calling out my name ?

Nobody knows that I still wake up thinking of u each day . .
It's only me missing u . .

Deep in my heart I still love u !
Still love u with all my soul n heart .
But I know , u don't feel same to me . .
U juz playing with my heart .
I'm tired . .
Sick of trying . .
Tired of everything . .
So tired . .

Everyday I trying to forget u . .
To fight my own heart is NOT easy .

I need to forget u to move on .
I need to erase u from my mind .

N find that I know how to let u go . .

love is all about.. choosing..

“u can shed tears that he is gone,
or u can smile because he has lived.
u can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back,
or u can open your eyes and see all he's left.
ur heart can be empty because u can't see him,
or u can be full of the love you shared.
u can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or u can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
u can remember him only that he is gone,
or u can cherish him memory and let it live on.
u can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or u can do what he'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”

now im messed up

When I was down and troubled,
then need one to talk to make me unconsious..
but can't there to fix me,
that's the time i have to stand up
altough my head still down.
I will survive it by my self
altough I can't deny that I need one to accompany me.
u know who is the one.

I always can't ask why it's seems not enough to get real
u make me wonder how can this happened.
I'm drowning,I'm sinking,I can't sailing.
i wanna slap myself,
just to make me find a sentence to get me understand
what is goin' on in this my own world.

its been long surviving,
its been long pretending,
i'm not that weak
but i'm not that strong,too.
i'm just only a human
who needs pieces of world to be sentences.
so i can cry on myself
and try to heal it.

song hahaha.. ^_^

lagi pusing" nya di kelas
ada temen namanya budsguds (budi) bilang
"mel, coba liat video clip ini deh"
bukan cm gw doang yang liat, ternyata temen yang lain juga liat
semua pada ketawa"..
i love my classmate..
love u all

complicated

sum'times i wanna cry my self badly
until i slept
have enough of all those thing only in my real life
not come in my dream
when bad things happen to me
i become insomnia
can't control my mind
GOD! i need healing.. please..

bla..bla..bla..

HOMESICK

Just doing fun with my computer.. browsing browsing and browsing.. so hommie i am..
alone in this house.. fast food time... lazy time......... ohh so damn great..
I feel, the best place to rest is only home..
There's only one thing who cannot heal by medicine

insomnia...

CAN'T SLEEP..
UDA JAM 4 a.m
T_T
HOAAMM...