now im messed up

When I was down and troubled,
then need one to talk to make me unconsious..
but can't there to fix me,
that's the time i have to stand up
altough my head still down.
I will survive it by my self
altough I can't deny that I need one to accompany me.
u know who is the one.

I always can't ask why it's seems not enough to get real
u make me wonder how can this happened.
I'm drowning,I'm sinking,I can't sailing.
i wanna slap myself,
just to make me find a sentence to get me understand
what is goin' on in this my own world.

its been long surviving,
its been long pretending,
i'm not that weak
but i'm not that strong,too.
i'm just only a human
who needs pieces of world to be sentences.
so i can cry on myself
and try to heal it.